My Funk ...

So, I have been in a kind of a funk lately, this being for a few reasons:

1) My hubby has been in a funk: we are both worried about money and how we are going to make it through the winter since i don' have a job yet ...

2) Adapting to small town life is hard, it seems that everyone talks about everyone all the time. If you aren't spreading the rumor, then it's typically about you. There are a few people in this town who don't know me and yet are running my name through the mud. WHY???? :( What did I ever do to them? :(

3) Partly covered in 1), but no job, why can't I find a job? I don't know! I have put application upon application in and I either never hear back, I interview and never hear back, or I interview and get the infamous rejection letter (as already discussed in a previous post). Frustrating! Why can't I just find a job? :( I even applied at Wal-Mart in Superior and they haven't called me back !!! :(

4) Tyler is gone during the week. He is gone from 3am Monday to Thursday or Friday. It's what we have to do for him to get a decent income for us. It saddens me to be a newlywed and not have him home, but distance I suppose makes the heart grow fonder.

5) Last but not least, boredom/not many friends. Being in a small town, there are clicks, and I am the new "guy" in town. Therefore, I don't really have any friends to talk to. I find some solace in Vanna in the Cities, but she is there and I am here. At least I can talk to her about my problems and vice versa.

Right now, I am sitting on my patio, relaxing, monkeying around on my computer. It's a gorgeous day that the Lord has made, so I am enjoying it. I spent the majority of the day at Lucius Woods, which is a block away. There is a nice beach there. I was there with a couple gals and their kids. It was nice and relaxing. I have nothing else to do for the rest of the day, but I am going to decidedly enjoy the outdoors for the rest of the evening I think. I need a hammock!!! Or at least a lounge chair!!!

That's all for now. Feel free to write comments of encouragement or laughter! :)

-Ana

Job Rejections

I hate those letters where you get rejected for a job!

To set up the scenario for this one ...

1) Application process
2) Invitation to take the comprehension test.
3) Once I pass the first test, I can take the performance test.
4) Passed the 2nd test.
5) Got called in for a formal interview.
6) Filled out a full background packet purchased a copy of my birth certificate & H.S. records.
7) Told interview would be 45 minutes long, I was in/out of there in under 15.
8) A week after my interview, I got the letter ...

AND I QUOTE ...

Dear Ana Kern,

On behalf of the interview panel, thank you for interviewing for the Dispatcher position in the Douglas County Communication Center.

Your interview received close consideration, however, based on structured interview portion of the process, you have not been selected to be placed on th eligibility list used for future openings for the Dispatcher position.

Again, thank you for participating in this process and for your interest in employment with Douglas County. Best of luck in your job search.

Sincerely,
Linda Corbin
HR Analyst


ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just need a job!!!!

Grey's Anatomy

So, my life has reached the point where I am sitting here watching my seasons of Grey's Anatomy on DVD. It is partly in anticipation of last season coming out on DVD next month and then the new season for this fall starting next month as well.

I am addicted to this trama-filled doctor show. It's sad really. Between this show, House, E.R., all the CSI's ... my evenings are wonderful in the Fall/Spring! :)

I am sitting here, in my comfy clothes, watching my TV and my puppy sleeping. It's cloudy and rainy, so my ambition level is LOW! My brother-in-law told me that my ambition was in the cupboard next to the sink, but it wasn't . And he got me all excited too! :)

This kind of weather makes me so tired. I just want to sleep. So, cuddled up in my blanket and watching TV is my day. But, this also makes me think about my Tyler more too, since he likes to cuddle and watch TV with me too!

Ok, rant is finished ... at least for now!

Sundays are too hard!

So, I am sitting here, watching TV, simply bawling my eyes out. This is nothing new, just the same Sunday routine that I experience every week. Tyler falls asleep about now, because he has to get up around 4am and needs the extra sleep. I cuddle with him until he snores and then cry my eyes out for the next few hours. Pathetic, I know, but I just lose it knowing that when I wake up in the morning, he will be gone for the week.


We went to a wedding this weekend for one of Tyler's co-workers, it was emotional to watch, since this is the first wedding that I have attended since my own. It made me realize how much I love my husband! Not that I didn't know that I loved him so much before, but it was a tear-jerking reminder. I even saw a couple tears glisten in his eyes as well!

Go ahead and call me sappy, but my heart aches for my hubby when he is gone!! I pray that it gets better with time and I can get more used to this. Or better yet, Tyler gets a job close to home where he's home every night!!! I am simply an emotional one this weekend!!!

In about 1/2 hour, I hope to get a phone call from my Vanna and she can always cheer me up. Until then, I am educating myself with Country Fried Home Videos on CMT and watching my puppy chew up a bone. Yeah, I am pretty much a loser.


Ok, there's my Sunday rant. More excitement to talk about some other day!

First Posting

This is my first time attempt at blogging. I never saw the point of having this sort of online journaling that people could read. I have found that I look forward to reading my friends' next posts, so what the heck, why don't I try this blogging thing.

I am not even sure what to write about, but I right now, I am sitting at my sister's house in Woodbury, MN. I came down to visit while my parents and siblings were here for the week. It's always so different for me to visit them after being on my own for so long. Being the oldest, I have been away for the longest. I feel so disconnected from the family these days. I am in my own settling down stage right now.

As of now, I have been married for 158 days, which is roughly 5 months, to my love, Tyler! There's a shocker in and of itself! I never thought (and neither did most people) that I would ever get married, let alone find someone who would actually want to marry me! I love being married. It's the best feeling in the world to have someone love you more than anything and whom you can have that intense love for in return. It's a transition period, yes. It's hard at first, yes. Is it worth it...? 100% !!!

I suppose that there is a lot that I can rant about, but as of now, I am signing off. Dinner is almost ready and later, I am taking a couple of my siblings to Applebees for the infamous 1/2 price appetizers! :)